It’s been awhile since I posted a blog. I needed a break 2019 has brought so many challenges. This season in my life has been very frustrating. Last December is when everything changed.. As I mentioned in previous blogs.. I relocated back to my hometown, I felt out of place and I had a lack of motivation. I was stuck working jobs that I hated.. Also, it didn’t allow me to have much of a balance in life. I was so miserable to tell the truth. I applied for so many jobs but never heard back. Those of you from NW Indiana can relate.. It’s crazy sometimes it can take 3-6 months to hear back. I’m not even exaggerating this is what I experienced.
Moving on last month I decided to take a leap of faith and try to move out again. Atlanta was a stepping stone & it’s an experience that I’ll never forget. This time around I didn’t want to move way across the country. I’m still a girl in progress. I thought to myself how can I move without money saved up. Based on what I was making an hour made it hard to save. NWI Indiana has yet to catch up with other cities, it’s just a little bit over minimum wage. Although, I didn’t have to pay a full months rent I still had big girl responsibilities. I was raised to be independent early as 16, when I got my first job Summer 2012. My parents showed me tough love. So, I’ll be able to survive on my own. But at the end of the day they still have my back. I am a broke college student just trying to make it. When I tell you, God made it possible for me to get back out in the World & chase my goals. I am forever grateful. This season of my life taught me to be present and to trust God. He knows what’s best for you.
August is coming to an end which means there’s ONLY 4 months left in 2 0 1 9. Wow! My advice to you all is to stay prayed up and be present in your season and God will see you through. Those of you starting back school I wish you all a great school year!! I am rooting for everyone as ALWAYS!
— Lauren Denise ♥️
HAPPY JULY— WE’RE MORE THAN HALF WAY THROUGH 2019.
First, I would like to apologize for not being present with blogging lately. The transition has been REAL. Some days I don’t feel as motivated since I moved back to NW Indiana. I feel like should’ve pushed myself a little more. It seems like my drive is fading away. Let me explain, when I lived out of state I had to make sh*t happen. I was proud to have my own & not have to depend or justify myself to anyone. I’m going to keep it real I didn’t have much. My apartment wasn’t decked out with furniture. It wasn’t in the best area either. But God KEPT me. 🙏🏽 Sometimes I spent late nights at the a laundromat, just to wash my uniforms. It was a struggle but blogging was my outlet . I’m finding it hard now to put out blogs consistently …
I’m not giving the devil the satisfaction. I rebuke depression & failure.. I’m constantly praying every day for strength to keep going. I’m just grateful for the experience. I’m not the same person anymore. I do what’s best for ME. Most importantly, I don’t have pity parties anymore. That’s growth… 🌱 When your environment is uncomfortable, it’s so easy to focus on the negative things. Just Keep moving forward! ♥️
It’s not the end of the world. Whatever your going through, just remember it’s not as bad as you think. God can move mountains! TRUST & BELIEVE. #ihearyou💕 — Lauren Denise
I hope everyone is well. It’s been two months since my last blog. This blog will be short and sweet. I just wanted to drop you all a line since I have a few minutes of downtime. One of the reasons why I haven’t been blogging is because work has been running me ragged. Also, my mind has been bombarded with a lot lately. It’s been four months since I moved back home. At times I feel like I did a complete circle coming back here. Everything is pretty much the same to be exact: lack of employment.. for sure it’s hard to to find a full time job with benefits. That’s NW Indiana for ya!🤣
Moving on I’m grateful that I have a place to stay and that I’m not struggling to afford a apartment along with other needs. Although, the pressure is still on. I have goals that I want to accomplish while I’m living at home. I just did debt consolidation with a local credit union. I feel so relived. That’s one thing off my checklist. One step at a time.🙌🏽 You may not be where you want to be in life. But your exactly where God wants you to BE! Don’t question it… A lot of times we allow ourselves to get in the way of our success. The world is constantly evolving & makes us think that we’re running out of time. When in reality we’re on time. God has a purpose for your life & knows what’s best for you. He may slow you down to get your attention. Don’t ignore the signs. At this point in my life, I want God’s BEST. NO mediocre!!
I am truly rooting for you all!! Keep pushing and you’ll make it.
When I look back on last year around this time, I was in a whole different state. Things really can change in a matter of 6 months to 12 months. I really got costumed to doing my own thing. Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m behind in life. A lot of times we discredit and put ourselves down. I think social media plays a big part how we treat ourselves.
Everything appears to be glamorous on social media. In reality it’s not a lot of people are going through some things. Many of us fall in the trap called the comparison game. I am human and tend to do it sometimes, it’s not intentional. I believe it’s a NORM which is a sociology term. A NORM is something that is usual or a standard. Society says you MUST attend a university after high school, finish within 4 years, and secure a career.
Let’s be real everyone will NOT finish in that time frame and that’s okay. God created us all in his image. He has a unique path for all of US! By that being said, STOP looking what others are doing and looking for validation on social media. I miss the days when school let out for the summer. Rather you went on a vacation or spent it with your grandparents. You were able to live in the moment. I’m sure many us of didn’t reach for our phone as much. I’ll tell you that.
I do believe social media is a distraction to a certain extent. For the remainder of the year I would like to work on living in the moment and to become a better version of Lauren Denise. It’s important to redirect ourselves when we feel some type of way about our current situation. Instead of worrying about things you don’t have or where you want to be in life; express gratitude!
God is constantly working on us every day. We all have our moments where we feel defeated. At the end of the day, whatever is meant to be will be. Be present this day going forward and speak life into yourself. Don’t forget to UNPLUG sometime. You deserve it! Treat yourself.. #ihearyou
Happy November!! 🧡🍂🍁
I can’t believe 2018 is nearly over.. I know it’s been awhile since my last Blog. I’ve been going through it lately. For the past few months I’ve been going back in forth to Urgent Care, due to being stressed. My immune system is low since I’m always on the GO!
I’m trying to do better far as eating right and sleeping enough at night. It’s very exhausting to keep up with everything. Truth is I am emotionally and physically tired. When I was growing up my Mom used to always say “It takes two Incomes.” Truthfully it does with the cost of living sky rocking. Working an entry level job isn’t enough to take care of big girl responsibilities. In order to survive, I have to work OT or find a side hustle along with attending college. I say all this to say, I encourage everyone to fully prepare prior to moving.. There’s nothing wrong with staying with family to set your self up for the future. Although, it’s pros and cons living with family and alone.. You just have to pick your poison.
Lord knows I’m trying to do right by him, everything is a process. I am becoming a stronger woman daily.. This is a learning experience in it’s self. A quite of few people ask me how do I cope with stress. Well, blogging is one way I cope. In the mist of everything, I’m staying true to myself and trying to push through the storm.
I wish you all the best. Make these last two months of 2018 COUNT. I know it seems impossible but God can change your situation when you least expect it!! Remember why you started & how far you can GO!! Endurance and ambition and along with faith has gotten me this FAR!! #iHEARYOU –Lauren Denise 💕
The early late 90’s & 2000’s were the best times of my life believe it or not. I was looking at few of my baby pictures, I teared up a little. I remember when LIFE was pretty simple. These days I barely get a chance to take time out for myself. Adulting is very challenging, you have to cook, clean, and take of yourself. I couldn’t imagine taking care of someone else right now, perhaps a baby… Every since I moved from home, I haven’t been able to treat myself. There’s comes a point in life where your NEEDS have to come before your WANTS. I miss going to the nail shop, getting my hair done, and going to the mall to shop for new clothes & accessories. I like to monitor my account every few days, just to make sure I’m not over my budget. For instance, it’s so easy to stop at Chick-Fil-A, Popeyes, Five Guys, & etc. You gotta remind yourself that there’s food at home. Lately, I’ve been struggling with making time for myself. Have you ever felt like 24 hours isn’t enough in a day? On average we all spend most of the day at work five days a week. That’s a lot when you take all consideration in what needs to be done. It seems like we all LIVE for the weekend & dread Monday’s… I’ve been going non stop for a very long time! I’m NOT getting any younger so I need to take time for myself & find balance in life. . BE sure to TAKE care of your self & your well-being. “It’s Rehab time” as Trent Shelton says. #iHEARYOU ✨Lauren Denise ✨